Just some garbled thoughts from my past 2 QTs:
Ecclesiastes 1
Everything in life is meaningless if it’s not centered on God. All the worries and burdens I’ve had about work, school, recognition, etc. are there because I’ve let them become more important to me than God.
Pleasures are meaningless. All this energy I put forth to make my own life better, to have a good job out of college, to live happily and comfortably, all this studying, doing homework, working hours on projects, working hours on improving portfolios, resumes, applications, will go to waste and be meaningless if done apart from God. One day, my life will end and all the things I did for myself will end with me.
But if, instead, I follow the will of God, live the life He’s called me to live, He will grant me my heart’s desires, desires I’m not even aware of , and grant me a life I can’t even begin to imagine because it’s beyond my comprehension. And I will store up riches in Heaven that will not die with my earthly body, but instead, last for eternity.
Heavenly Father, I know all this, but I’m still having problems entrusting my life to You. I’ve been so burdened by the thoughts of what I need to get done and worries of my career path.
I’m having a hard time getting out of bed in the morning because I like laying there fantasizing about the ideal life and pleasures I’m not able to have now, a life that only I think is best for me, a life that doesn’t seem to have You in it.
I get so caught up and worried about my future that sometimes I even feel like You are getting in the way. 
But what do I know? Who am I??? Nothing. There’s absoutely no meaning in my toil if You aren’t part of it.
Please (please please!) help me realize this! Christ, be the center of my life! Help me to be so excited to meet You in the morning that I can’t help but jump out of bed and immerse myself in Your Word.
Help me to lay my burdens down at Your feet and let You carry them for me. You said:
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Lord, I come to You. I’m on my knees before You. You are the author of my life, not me.
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oh that’s what you were talking about at steak and shake today. you stay in bed to fantasize about ideal life… OHH.
will you like me to call you in the morning to HYPE YOU UP FOR JESUS?! and sing you songs “this is the day”?! I used to do that with to-to. hehehehe.
hey, ill be praying for you. come with me and bei2 on fridays to do qt together
tell me how i can better spur you towards Jesus, my dear sister. <3
Ines wants you to update too. She’s right beside me. Your fans are crying out!!!
what is this whole thing about.. “argh, my life is not as interesting as Twig’s and she keeps telling me to update! i can’t update!”
comeon.